Goodness! Parenting is the hardest job that I have ever had ...... and it doesn't pay a penny! I know what I'm supposed to type next is, but it pays in many other more rewarding ways - right? Lately, it hasn't felt that way. Lately, it's felt like a never ending exhausting uphill run. And it leaves me exhausted and wanting to just crash into bed at night with HGTV on and relax!
Isn't it ironic that the very thing I need God MOST for (being a good Mom), I can push him aside the most when it's exhausting and tiring. When I need Him to fill me with patience, grace, mercy, and never ending Love, those are the times that I don't turn to Him for it. Thank goodness He's not the same parent I am :)
Seeking God today!
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Awakenings
I have gone thru a season in my life that's been dull. Every morning feels like a cloudy, rainy day instead of warm sunshiney day. I have been trudging along, just surviving life trying to be a support to my husband and EVERYTHING to my 4 kids. No passion, no emotion (except anger, man why can't I shake that one?), no joy.
It's been lonely at times. My hubby and I haven't really connected in some time. My friends have been sick or schedules within our own families does not allow us to get together.
But this past week, I feel an awakening in my soul! For whatever reason (maybe because I don't listen well or because the stage of life I'm in keeps me busy constantly), God usually speaks to me thru others words - blogs, podcasts, books, etc. I'll hear a podcast, or read a blog and feel God's presence, drawing me in, telling me, "I've missed you, come back to ME! Spend time with ME!" And I'll remember what an amazing God I serve. I'll remember that time with HIM is priceless. It's life-giving! How quickly I forget how much I need HIM.
I'm glad He's reminding me this week that He's still there. That He still loves me. He's reminding me how desperately I need HIM.
It sure makes life a lot more meaningful :)
It's been lonely at times. My hubby and I haven't really connected in some time. My friends have been sick or schedules within our own families does not allow us to get together.
But this past week, I feel an awakening in my soul! For whatever reason (maybe because I don't listen well or because the stage of life I'm in keeps me busy constantly), God usually speaks to me thru others words - blogs, podcasts, books, etc. I'll hear a podcast, or read a blog and feel God's presence, drawing me in, telling me, "I've missed you, come back to ME! Spend time with ME!" And I'll remember what an amazing God I serve. I'll remember that time with HIM is priceless. It's life-giving! How quickly I forget how much I need HIM.
I'm glad He's reminding me this week that He's still there. That He still loves me. He's reminding me how desperately I need HIM.
It sure makes life a lot more meaningful :)
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